I have decided to forego the article on planning for the time being because
a) I was a chaotic wreck on the Taurus Full Moon because (I thought) I had a million choices to choose from and I couldn’t decide on shit, so I ran abouts like a chicken with head cut off, or that chicken from Mohana.
b) You can’t really plan when your mind is shit.
Thus, on my drive home this last weekend, I had three major insights I quickly memorized and grew to love (at least insights for me)
- Create with curiosity. *NOT* by “desperately trying.”
- If it looks like hard yuck work you wish to accomplish, then you’re in the wrong mindset or you’re looking too big (which is also a part of the wrong mindset).
- (AND FOR ME, THE MOST IMPORTANT) The longer you FOCUS on something, the better it goes in your subconscious.
#3 came about because I was trying to memorize #1 and #2 on the drive, because I had nothing to write with initially. Some (or all) of these points may seem straightforward to you, but let me explain the *power* (at least for me, the way my theorizing goes).
Earlier in the day, I’d been memorizing lines for my French presentation, so that I could recall what I was going to say during our awesome performance.
What is going on when, as a student, you are memorizing information? (Something, up until now, I have been LOATHE to do…in fact, I advocated “writing shit down so I WOULDNT HAVE to remember…”). Essentially, it seems like you are putting conscious information into some realm of your subconscious to be drawn forth later.
So…”the longer you focus on something, the better it goes into your subconscious.” The more you study, the better you remember, etc. (And of course feel free to add in any splice of “studying tactic” that helps put things deeper down, whatever).
BUT WTF ARE WE CONTINUALLY FOCUSING ON IN OUR DAY TO DAY???
Next major point…if you have ever studied the Greek/Roman Philosophy of Stoicism (it’s awesome, give it a shot!), there’s a lot of talk about “what’s IN our control, and what’s NOT in our control.” After the first time I went to Stoic Camp (3rd time’s a charm this May 15th!), I began to wonder:
What if all of my actions were out of my control?
Modern Psychology seems to give evidence to this point…if you have ever heard of those experiments that show “People make a decision BEFORE they are aware they made the decision.”
Thus, my line of thinking went “Well shit…if most of me is autonomous, then maybe I should focus my efforts on programming myself how I want to be.
The MOST RECENT evidence I came to within myself for this came along with point #3…
HOW MUCH OF THE SYSTEMS IN YOUR BODY ARE AUTONOMOUS? Blood pumping, erections, getting wet (hell yeah you know I can’t NOT add some sexual shit hahhah), nerves firing, etc. So if our physical body is MOSTLY AUTONOMOUS, why wouldn’t the rest of our perceived world be mostly autonomous too?
With our FOCUS…how much do you think you could REALLY OPERATE without autonomous systems? Seems to me ye can only FOCUS on one thing at a time (unless you’re some awesome magical Sage, whereas rumor has it those guys can split their physical forms in two or some shit….).
Ok NEXT POINT, and then this shit all ties together.
Physical reality…is STILL just PERCEPTION. The perception you get from your senses, and your mind’s interpretation, etc.
What if this MATTER…is you could say just “structurally MORE SOLID” than thoughts? Imagination, flights of fancy, etc.? Especially, if it’s all just energy? Couldn’t it be just a “more solidified, more ingrained” version of thought? Created from the subconscious? More rigidly ingrained in the subconscious?
SO……..in tying it all together:
If you want to change your life, ya go with the shit you hear all the time about “change your inner world, change your perception,” but they don’t fucking tell you HOW.
For me, it starts with these THREE POINTS…and then spending as much time focusing, creating, STRUCTURING AND SOLIDIFYING ideas/thoughts I would PREFER, and then LET THE SUBSCONSCIOUS and AUTOMATIC SYSTEMS do their work…
(The trick here, at least for me…is it’s kind of catch 22…because I think I have to enjoy/want more the pictures/images in my head and NOT CARE how the physical turns out…definitely some fine tuning and shit…)
FINAL NOTE – this is all just my own theorizing, shit I’ve been working here and there for the past few years, but I am adamant that life can be enjoyable, and not a miserable fucking mess. lol. Take what of this you will, but if you have something to add, I’d love to hear about it. Until them, I’ll be working on meditating/memorizing these 3 points, among a *few* others (And BONUS with the memorizing them…it helps slow down my thoughts…which is generally ALWAYS a good thing, HAR!)