Perception and Subconscious Programming

I have decided to forego the article on planning for the time being because

a) I was a chaotic wreck on the Taurus Full Moon because (I thought) I had a million choices to choose from and I couldn’t decide on shit, so I ran abouts like a chicken with head cut off, or that chicken from Mohana.

b) You can’t really plan when your mind is shit.

Thus, on my drive home this last weekend, I had three major insights I quickly memorized and grew to love (at least insights for me)


  1.  Create with curiosity.  *NOT* by “desperately trying.”
  2. If it looks like hard yuck work you wish to accomplish, then you’re in the wrong mindset or you’re looking too big (which is also a part of the wrong mindset).
  3. (AND FOR ME, THE MOST IMPORTANT) The longer you FOCUS on something, the better it goes in your subconscious.

#3 came about because I was trying to memorize #1 and #2 on the drive, because I had nothing to write with initially.  Some (or all) of these points may seem straightforward to you, but let me explain the *power* (at least for me, the way my theorizing goes).

 

Earlier in the day, I’d been memorizing lines for my French presentation, so that I could recall what I was going to say during our awesome performance.

What is going on when, as a student, you are memorizing information?  (Something, up until now, I have been LOATHE to do…in fact, I advocated “writing shit down so I WOULDNT HAVE to remember…”).  Essentially, it seems like you are putting conscious information into some realm of your subconscious to be drawn forth later.

So…”the longer you focus on something, the better it goes into your subconscious.”  The more you study, the better you remember, etc.  (And of course feel free to add in any splice of “studying tactic” that helps put things deeper down, whatever).

BUT WTF ARE WE CONTINUALLY FOCUSING ON IN OUR DAY TO DAY???


Next major point…if you have ever studied the Greek/Roman Philosophy of Stoicism (it’s awesome, give it a shot!), there’s a lot of talk about “what’s IN our control, and what’s NOT in our control.”  After the first time I went to Stoic Camp (3rd time’s a charm this May 15th!), I began to wonder:

What if all of my actions were out of my control?

Modern Psychology seems to give evidence to this point…if you have ever heard of those experiments that show “People make a decision BEFORE they are aware they made the decision.”

Thus, my line of thinking went “Well shit…if most of me is autonomous, then maybe I should focus my efforts on programming myself how I want to be.

The MOST RECENT evidence I came to within myself for this came along with point #3…

HOW MUCH OF THE SYSTEMS IN YOUR BODY ARE AUTONOMOUS?  Blood pumping, erections, getting wet (hell yeah you know I can’t NOT add some sexual shit hahhah), nerves firing, etc.  So if our physical body is MOSTLY AUTONOMOUS, why wouldn’t the rest of our perceived world be mostly autonomous too?

With our FOCUS…how much do you think you could REALLY OPERATE without autonomous systems?  Seems to me ye can only FOCUS on one thing at a time (unless you’re some awesome magical Sage, whereas rumor has it those guys can split their physical forms in two or some shit….).


Ok NEXT POINT, and then this shit all ties together.

Physical reality…is STILL just PERCEPTION.  The perception you get from your senses, and your mind’s interpretation, etc.

What if this MATTER…is you could say just “structurally MORE SOLID” than thoughts?  Imagination, flights of fancy, etc.?  Especially, if it’s all just energy?  Couldn’t it be just a “more solidified, more ingrained” version of thought?  Created from the subconscious?  More rigidly ingrained in the subconscious?


SO……..in tying it all together:

If you want to change your life, ya go with the shit you hear all the time about “change your inner world, change your perception,” but they don’t fucking tell you HOW.

For me, it starts with these THREE POINTS…and then spending as much time focusing, creating, STRUCTURING AND SOLIDIFYING ideas/thoughts I would PREFER, and then LET THE SUBSCONSCIOUS and AUTOMATIC SYSTEMS do their work…

(The trick here, at least for me…is it’s kind of catch 22…because I think I have to enjoy/want more the pictures/images in my head and NOT CARE how the physical turns out…definitely some fine tuning and shit…)


FINAL NOTE – this is all just my own theorizing, shit I’ve been working here and there for the past few years, but I am adamant that life can be enjoyable, and not a miserable fucking mess.  lol.  Take what of this you will, but if you have something to add, I’d love to hear about it.  Until them, I’ll be working on meditating/memorizing these 3 points, among a *few* others (And BONUS with the memorizing them…it helps slow down my thoughts…which is generally ALWAYS a good thing, HAR!)

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Bedtime Thoughts on Worship

Sometimes I’ll have great ideas in ‘inconvenient’ places or situations.  I say inconvenient because “Shit, I can’t really write this down right now!”

Or

“Shit I don’t want to write this down right now because _________ (I’m tired, drunk, high, etc.)”

Or even…

“Dude, you don’t have to write all this shit down….”

(haha that last one gets me…one of those that I still have some trust issues to deal with I suppose)

ANYWAYS

The idea went like this:

“WHY DO PEOPLE WORSHIP GOD?”  (Or The Universe, or Allah, or whatever it is that people worship, whatever special word you want to use.  I like God.  I grew up with it, and I haven’t seen/felt any sense in replacing it.  Maybe “Mystery” or “Divine” but whatever, now I’m rambling.)

Because…do you REALLY BELIEVE God (etc.) would WANT to be worshipped?

Think about it…who WANTS to be worshipped in everyday life?  (In LOTS, if not MOST, if not ALL of my questions about spiritual/magical/whatever natures, I tend to take my clues from the physical world)

= Your Stalins, your Maos, (I’m in a Chinese and Russian history classes right now, heh), your Kardashians, your Trumps (hehe).  “Look at my Trump-Penis-Gold-Brick-Tower!”

But your typical “greats?”  Did they ever give one flying fuck about whether people worshipped them or not?  NOT that I can imagine (unless some had a little bit of a Zoolander personality, in which case I imagine that is just FUN 🙂   (and insert something about not giving a rat’s ass to the “flattery of fools”)

NO.  If they had stuff to share with you (the world), then maybe they were just happy to do so, NO CREDIT NEEDED, because probably their ego wasn’t really there…

Isn’t HUMBLENESS supposed to be one of those great virtues?  If it really IS….and supposedly God is supposed to be higher up than the ordinary person on the Virtue list…..then Their (He/She/All/Whatever) HUMBLENESS ought to be a little taller than the twin towers.

(*OH SNAP* couldn’t help tossing in a lil’ morbid joke there, ha!)

Borrowing an example form Christianity (the language I’m most familiar with).  I can’t remember my homie Jesus ever saying “Bow town and grovel at my feet!”  Nah, dude even started out by WASHING others’ twinkle toes.

And of course He may have been OK with people laying down palms at his feet and calling him Lord…because why not?  Is he going to say “No, it’s NOT ok for you to be fond of me?”  Doubtful.

People (or whatever beings) that NEED to be worshipped…I imagine there has to be some vanity issues there…or insecurities….NOT traits you would give to an Almighty, eh?

OK….I’ve drilled this point home.  The only other thing I have to say, is maybe I need to re-evaluate what the word “Worship” means.  I DID get a little excited when I thought “Warship” LOL.  Whatever.  Go play with your own mind-thoughts now.

 

P.S.  As I was putting in some awesome #tags, I thought of the word “Idol Worship.”  -> “Don’t warship any idols, I say!” was one commandment.

Idol worship -> ok nevermind I lost it.  Maybe something like “Don’t even make ME an idol.  I just want to be your friend!”

Potential Regret

4/6/2017

1:57pm

 

0:20 “You’re most scared of…”         “…unfulfilled potential.”

So…as I was walking to get my lunch (because I’m hungry) out of my car, a new insight dawned on me.  Like Emma Watson (when I saw the trailer to The Circle for the first time, I thought “Yeah, I know what you mean,”) living a life *NOT* “living up to my potential” KILLS ME inside.  (As I’m sure it does a LOT of people blessed/cursed with ambition…).

In fact, it’s one of the biggest points of anger, frustration, and regret I have…because I see so much there, but SOMETHING is blocking me from it…

But the INSIGHT I received while walking to get my lunch (because I’m hungry) was:

“WAIT A MINUTE, FUCKER….what does “potential” imply?”

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po·ten·tial
pəˈten(t)SHəl/
adjective
adjective: potential
  1. 1.
    having or showing the capacity to become or develop into something in the future.
    “a two-pronged campaign to woo potential customers”
    synonyms: possible, likely, prospective, future, probable; More

    “a potential source of conflict”
noun
noun: potential; plural noun: potentials
  1. 1.
    latent qualities or abilities that may be developed and lead to future success or usefulness.
    “a young broadcaster with great potential”
    synonyms: possibilities, potentiality, prospects; More

    “economic potential”
    • the possibility of something happening or of someone doing something in the future.
      “the crane operator’s clear view reduces the potential for accidents”
  2. 2.
    Physics
    the quantity determining the energy of mass in a gravitational field or of charge in an electric field.

So sayeth “Google” (haha……The Circle……lol).  Ignoring the Physics definition (although that IS interesting to explore later *maybe*), we have:

“potential is what YOU ARE NOT.” 

 

 

So obviously there is an “error in brain-coding” going on here, that LEADS TO……….frustration, anger, regret, sadness, etc.

 

YOURE FUCKING YOUR OWN HEAD UP WITH FAULTY THINKING.

 

NOW….there’s something MORE here than meets the eye…….but I’ll let the subconscious take that on because I’ve other interests for my conscious for now.  Ther’es some magic key more here………